Yesterday, I was a horrible Mommy. Yesterday, I had horrible children.
And I was so mad at God about it, I didn’t speak to Him all day.
He kept trying to talk to me. But I turned a cold shoulder.
He can do all things, why wasn’t He making me a better Mommy? Why wasn’t He making my children better children?
I was miserable and distracted myself with the Internet. Breaking the promise I’d made to stay offline until my Bible was read.
The day was over; I took two Tylenol and went to bed.
I woke up this morning. Josh had already left. The children were already awake. I took no shower and ate breakfast while feeding three other mouths as well. My headache echoed dimly in the recesses of my skull.
But I didn’t want yesterday. Yesterday was a cold, horrible day, distant from God. I kept my laptop off. I took whatever uninterrupted time I could get (in groups of 3-5 minutes) and read two chapters in Luke.
I prayed for my children. I prayed for myself.
And suddenly, my children don’t seem so horrible.
Did they change? Did I change? Did God give me His eyes through which to see them?
I’m not sure. But I know this now:
God can do all things, but He prefers I do them through Him.
amen! thanks for sharing.
I have those days often.
Well said.
🙂
Thank you for this post. It was a refreshment to my soul.
Isn’t that the truth? Thanks for this, I need to go read my Bible.
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Wow! That is so easy to see when you put it in words. Thank you for that. I needed it!
Perfect. Thank you.
I hear that!
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What a timely reminder. I’m sick. I’ve been sick all week. I know I am not always a good mother when I’m feeling so crummy. I’m not as patient or understanding as I ought to be.
I think now is a good time to get off the computer and get on my knees!
(thank you!!)
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You just described my today. I hope I get a tomorrow like yours. 🙂
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Sooo…I guess this is one of those “nothing” times in your all-or-nothing world? Or, disaster has struck and you haven’t the time to update. If so, let us know so we can pray for you.
I don’t know you, and I just happened to stumble onto your blog while looking for natural/whole foods recipes. But I just want you to know, I cried when I read this. The Holy Spirit spoke through you to me, and you were a blessing. We all have days like this as moms, and you are chosing to be used by Him as a vessel to hold His glory…even if you don’t feel like it!! Thanks for your willingness to be molded, and your willingness to share how you are being shaped into the Mommy He wants you to be. You are an encouragement! I will come back to your blog again, even though I don’t normally take the time to read people’s blogs (naptime is precious, right?!).
P.S. I love that song, Your Love is Extravagant, too!
So true!
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